Thank you, next

Do you ever find yourself in a constantly cycle of getting bored?
You start a new job, for the first few months you’re focused on what you need to know, who you need to know, where you need to be, when. This time is great – learning every day.
Then suddenly, it begins to slow down.

I’m at this point now, again. It took me eight wonderful months this time, yet here we are again.
Frustration begins to build – why can’t people just do their jobs? Why does noone around me seem motivated in the right ways? Why am I not making progress on the things I know my team needs to be successful? What can I do to be more effective, instead of just more busy?

I even tried taking a break last year, 5 months doing something totally different, physical, to mix it up. Yet, here we are again, this all familiar stalling sensation.

My manager has also identified it this time, which is a new one for me. Previous managers were so caught up in their own little flurry of business that my switching off was just an inconvenience to them. This manager actually identified it before I did.

I have a list of 5 key areas my team needs to focus on to improve how we do what we do, yet without finishing the list (which I usually do, or at least get close to), I’m considering abandoning ship.

Previously I considered this a toxic pattern. I questioned why I could never be happy. Why I never considered anything good enough to stick with happily. But maybe that’s a skillset I must simply embrace.

I’m a fixer. A doer. I come in and find things that need to be better, rather than simply following the status quo and keeping a seat warm. I’m sure there are many of us out there.
I like to take a job, figure it out, write a manual for the next person (so they’re not having to redo the same ‘discovery’ work that I did) and then jump on to the next thing.

But maybe this just means I’m doing the wrong jobs. I found a happy place on a farm – endless opportunities to do things differently, always more work to be done, contributing to wellbeing of animals, contributing to the economic situation of the property. Of course, this one I self-sabotaged by disagreeing with people so that I kept moving, then was offered a job and jumped to it.

I think farming may be the sweet spot I need. My own farm.
I just have to figure out the consistent income stream of it, which the foundation has been building for the past 10 years through uni, mining, farming, management.
Much to figure out, better get to it.

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